The Larger Scheme of Things

Someone said that a system cannot define itself completely. Yet another man (i happen to know that this is Douglas Adams!!) said

"There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable.There is another theory which states that this has already happened."

God knows who is true. Probably they both are! The point I am trying to make is that inspite of all the efforts on my part(not that it counts for a lot!!) , I am still not able to comprehend what I am doing here. I wonder what the Maker was trying to achieve when he/she/it added an infinitesimally small fraction of complexity(thats me!!) to the Universe. As if it wasnt complex enough already!!

Makes me wonder...what is the scheme of things that he/she/it has planned for the Universe. Does he/she/it control it at every moment. Or is it that the Universe had been set off and now it is just being watched over? I really wouldnt like the former. I cannot stomach the fact that I am a puppet strung up to someone else's strings. If it is the latter, what does it matter if a miniscule fraction of it goes astray!My doing one thing instead of another is'nt going to affect the rest of the Universe a slight bit. I mean I could have decided to not go to the school and go to the park and watch the grass grow instead and the rest of the world would still be going about its business the same way it always did. It does affect the Universe as perceived by me though!! The class that I went to today might just be THAT important class that could have changed MY world.

The conclusion being that one should stop being pulled back by thinking what the purpose of one's being is and should enjoy what one is gifted with. And I dont mean your organ!! I am talking about CONSCIOUSNESS. We should be happy about the fact that we, inspite of being a large chunk of inanimate matter, are still able to have a realization of self. For me, the fact that I am not able to fit mysef in the larger scheme of things is not a discouraging sign. Rather, it is something that encourages me to introspect,explore my level of consciousness.

I for one, am happy I(whatever "happy" means!!) that I am able to see the flowers in their full bloom, smell the sweet scent that the first rains falling on the parched earth creates, touch the dew drops on the grass early in the summer mornings, stand in the shade of a banyan tree and listen to the gushing sound that the first drops of rain falling on the leaves make,laugh, cry, feel love...to put it in a nutshell, I am happy to be right here rigth now!!!